day 1 version 2.0

It’s 8:30 pm and I have successfully made it through Day 1.  I call it version 2.0 because I did not drink at all in August and now my goal is to do another 30 days and beyond.  I know that I have to focus on small wins, like one day at a time, one week at a time, one month at a time.  I have a nice little trip planned to a yoga retreat for the end of December.  It is my goal to go to this place clean and clear.  I’ll also need to pick back up with yoga so that I can keep up.

I went hiking with a friend today.  It was a nice surprise because she is not the outdoorsy type, but she is one of my favorite friends.  We had a great time and she’s a bit more fit than I am so I really had to work hard to keep up with her.  I’m completely exhausted right now and pretty sure I’ll sleep well.  I’ve been having insanely wild and scary dreams for the past few weeks and I’m hoping that those will calm down as my system benefits from not having any alcohol in it.  Even if I don’t sleep well during this adjustment phase of not drinking at least I’ll be sober and I know that I will begin to sleep well again in about 7-10 days.

This time around, I know what to expect so it’s not as uncertain as it was in August.  I know that in a couple of days I’ll begin to cool down.  In a few more days my confidence will increase and I’ll feel more competent in all areas of my life.  In a couple of weeks I’ll feel like anything is possible and I’ll be more motivated to exercise more because I’ll feel like I’m worth it and I’m proud to take good care of myself.

I have to remember that this is a choice.  I am choosing to not drink.  When I have a tough day, I won’t drink.  I won’t give up.  I know this can be a difficult time of year to not drink because of the holidays, but I think that’s a part of what makes me want to accomplish this even more.

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4 thoughts on “day 1 version 2.0

  1. Yeah for you! It is amazing looking at how you describe the days to come. So true! I am on day 21 and I feel like I can accomplish so much! For me AA has been the link I needed to become sober. What I have learned and accepted and found to be true in my own life is that it will always lead to progression if I drink again……i will never be a normal drinker. So I choose this new path for my life and am so excited for you!

  2. Verson 2.0. Love it! This post really speaks to me because my sober trajectory has been so similar. Stopping in April was completely different to stopping in August. The second time around i was/am so much better equipped to deal with that accursed addictive voice, just as you are. You’ve done this before, you can do it again. No, you ARE doing it.

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